XDM is just too uncomfortable
I was born in 2001, and the girl is in 93.08, eight years older than me, but her face looks very young and she has never been married.
We met on Soul in April 2024, then played League of Legends, went shopping, took photos, and had many common topics. Before we knew it, more than two years had passed. At that time, my take-home salary was only 4.9k, and she didn't care at all (the 4.9k in Shanghai).
She is quite ideal, able to listen and empathizeThinking, imaginative people, we have never argued or quarreled.

I have never been able to overcome the barrier of age. I feel it's time for us to end things. Recently, there was a job opportunity in Ulanqab, and I wanted to go. I wanted to use geographic isolation to cut off our emotional connection. I recently started talking with her. She said, "You swear you want to leave me because you care about your age." She tried to persuade me to stay, saying, "Is there really no way to do it?" She held back her tears and looked at me. I firmly replied, "Yes."

Today is the third day since I cut off contact with her. I feel especially emotional (maybe it's guilt). I always distract myself at work, and as soon as it's quiet and late, I can't sleep, thinking about how she cried.

With my emotions at the top, I was trying to convince myself, "Eight years old doesn't seem like a big deal, she's young.", then lied to my parents, saying it was from 1998."
I've dated two girlfriends before, one born in 2001 and 2003, and the other in 20025, so I still want to find someone younger than me.

But then he rememberedExtremely peacefulMy brother often says, "Get married and find someone who likes you far more than you like."
If you really don't know what to do, accept or painfully refuse.

Writing this, I feel like she and I are psychologically the same age (because my thinking leans more toward the old man, and she is more childish), but I'm also very worried that my relatives and classmates at home will gossip. Sigh, even though I barely go back a few times a year.

When I went out to eat with her friends before, she said directly at the table, "You can't live without me for the rest of your life," and now I want to abandon her.

Doubao advised me, "Not used to it≠ My knot disappeared
What you miss is two years of stable companionship, a comfortable life where someone can empathize with you at any moment, and the emptiness that comes from losing a high-quality intimate relationship.
But the core problem that traps you still remains: concerns brought on by age, pressure from others' gossip, and hesitation about the future. ”